Boston?

Sooo, I've pretty much decided that I want to go to Boston this weekend to hang out with Chris Eff and Billi, because, who would pass on an opportunity like that?! I'm going to take a huge chance because they've decided to do a pub crawl aaaand I've yet to reach the (American) legal drinking age of 21, so the chance being that I might not be able to get into a pub with them. Haha, all this information has been important to me because I've spent all this weekend trying to decide whether or not I should go and like I said, it's pretty much decided.


It's been a strange time for me lately, I'm more buddy-buddy with my ex-boyfriend now, and it's actually refreshing to be around him and see that he isn't sad that we're hanging out and not really together, because I used to get that vibe from him before. I guess it's what I wanted, to be friends, and until recently he's been to weird to be around, so I guess that's good. One of the things holding me back from hanging out with him more is the fear that I might be leading him on and also him seeing us hang out more as a sign of possible reconciliation, which isn't a possibility, not in the near future anyways. Wow. What a bitchy thing to say...but it's true.

I've also been hanging out with my friend Jess more, she's a girl I met through my old job and she's awesome because she's a gamer and I like to consider myself a former gamer, since...I used to play WoW... and I still play video games like Call of Duty 4 and Team Fortress 2 and Counter Strike...(my dorkiness just increased by 20 points, I know) but Jess is HOT and I sometimes feel intimidated when I hang with her, just cuz she's THAT good looking, haha. Anyways, it's also weird because she's friends with some people that I went to high school with, but like the ones I never hung out with in high school because those guys were doing pot, and they still are. Also, whenever I hang out with her, I'm usually the ONLY person that doesn't smoke and it's funny because I carry a lighter, (out of habit because during the summer I used to watch a lot of soccer games and I had a candle that repelled mosquitos and I needed a lighter to light the candle) and what happens is that I'm usually the only person with a lighter and everyone is confused as to why I have one. The conversation sounds like this:
"Do you smoke?"
-No
"Oh. You smoke weed, then?"
-No.
"Oh....Then why do you have a lighter?!!?"

And this happens with every person that I lend my lighter to.

Anyways, that was more useless ramblings, I just felt like posting something since it's been awhile and apparently people actually read this blog and so now I feel obliged to update for the sake of you people having something to read. <3 youu all.

p.s. here's my new video IF you haven't watched it already and IF you want to watch it again.