Hi?

I know I've been very weak in my attempts to make some kind worthwhile blog here, I can't find myself having enough time to write down what I feel is important to write down. There are moments here and there, but they pass and then I forget about it. I figure, I have some time now, I'll try to commit myself to at least a blog here and there, you know, just to let you know that I'm doing ok, or if I'm not doing ok.

Probably, those of you who actually read this, know about Ryan leaving for bootcamp. I'm not going to talk about it a lot, it really just makes me sad because I do miss him. It's strange to have these feelings for someone I've never met. The internet is capable of many things, and I think happiness is one of those things. I know I'm not exactly happy right now in this moment, but I think in the long run, further down, there is some happiness there. So I wait.

Another thing that has me down is the fact that I had to get my car scrapped. It died on new year's eve and only last week did I get it checked out and found out that the engine had to be replaced and it would have cost me $1500 to fix it. I debated for a few days, talked to some of my friends and co-workers. They pretty much all gave me the same advice. Let it go. It being my first car, I'm so attached to it, but I think I knew as soon as my mom told me how much it would cost that I had to let it go. That car had a good three years with me, it took me where I needed to go, New York once and Boston three times. You really were a piece of crap, but I loved you anyways. :)

So, as of now, I'm stuck taking the bus everywhere, with the occaisonal time when my mom lets me borrow her car. I'm surprisingly enjoying this. Even though it's winter and it's freezing cold and walking in the snow and slush is awful, I'm more aware of the time I have to get places and plus I have time to read my book while I'm on the bus. I'm halfway through Valley Of the Dolls by Jacqueline Susann and it's really pretty good. I look forward to being on the bus so I can continue to read.

To add to the things that I've been doing to keep myself occupied, I've joined a gym around here and I've really happy with myself and the motivation I have to keep myself going, even with my lack of a car. The location of this gym isn't exactly is the most convenient places but it's still managable (even if it takes two bus rides to get there and three to get home). I've been going with my BFF, I like when we go together because I have someone to talk to inbetween cardio sessions and during stretching, but I don't mind going alone either. There are a few people I know that train there but it's really rare that I go at the same time as someone else. As of now, I'm going everyday that I can, where my work schedule allows it, within the time that the gym is actually open. So any day where I finish at 5 or 6 on weekdays and if I work the weekend I can't go because it closes too early. I didn't really make any kind of new year's resolution to get in shape or anything, but I figure it's about time I do something productive and good for myself in my free time. Plus, I just wanna look good, haha.

Anyways. the working day calls to me. Hopefully, I'll have more interesting things to blog about in the coming weeks. :)